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Re: Mek-Sha Nightlife (Star Wars)

Posted: Wed Mar 31, 2021 1:44 am
by Monkey Kitty
Felix Iresso

Felix knocked on the door of the crew quarters.

"Hey, Neva?" he called. "I wanted to make sure you were okay. I couldn't help but notice that... well..."

That the Zabrak pilot didn't seem like herself. That she had withdrawn from everyone, showed no interest in the helm or the navigation, and that she was hiding by herself in the bunk.

"I know you're going to try to tell me you're fine. And if you want to leave it at that, it's cool, I'll go. I just wanted to give you the option. Because I might know something about what it's like - the stuff you're dealing with."

Re: Mek-Sha Nightlife (Star Wars)

Posted: Fri Apr 09, 2021 12:42 am
by Quaxo9

She sat in stunned silence atop her robe that had been laid out fresh on her bed no more than a half hour ago. The only clean, logical item in her life at the moment. A mere piece of cloth of no importance. Still, she clung to it as though leaving the safety of its orderliness would condemn her to spiral into the ether.

Was he right?

She’d known something was off with Arksynn when he’d come into the med bay so quiet and reserved. At the time, she’d attributed it to his still being angry with her over the beach incident – and had gone about making her apology. Everything had gone as she planned. Well, not so much planned as expected. Everything had been fine, but then he had to open his mouth and ask again about her plans for the future.

She didn’t know whether she was angry with him for prodding her, or more angry with herself for not having a suitable answer. Not that it had mattered at the time, she had just blamed him and told him that he shouldn’t be getting so cozy here with the Jedi and her weird contingent of Sith family and friends. That they didn’t belong. And he’d…disagreed. Vehemently. If she was honest, most of the things he said she actually suspected might be true – like that they did belong here with these people who were kind and trustworthy – and that thought still terrified her.

So she’d taken out her fear on him in the nastiest way she could think of. Anything to shut him up and make him listen to the voice in her head instead of his own. He’d looked cowed, and a disgusting pleasure had begun to fill her with the thought that she’d won. And then he spoke.

“You’re just like her.”

He had left after saying those few words. Left her knowing full well who ‘her’ was and left her having to face the idea that she had actually turned into the monster she hated – alone.

Re: Mek-Sha Nightlife (Star Wars)

Posted: Sat Apr 10, 2021 1:21 pm
by Monkey Kitty
Siralai Mahr

Siralai went about her day, but the edge of panic remained just below the surface. Her sister's threats about her son weren't far from her mind. What was she going to do? She couldn't risk losing Ebben. But she also couldn't betray the young Sith who were so in need of safety and guidance...

To take her mind off it, Siralai did some more laundry. With all the swimming and beach-going, there was plenty.

She knocked on Reyth's door. "Reyth? I brought you some clean towels and some more clothes you can borrow from... Hey, Reyth? Are you okay?"

Siralai had of course not expected a verbal response to her question, but the stillness from within the room worried her.

Re: Mek-Sha Nightlife (Star Wars)

Posted: Sun Apr 11, 2021 11:54 pm
by Quaxo9
Neva Xolte

She turned her head so she could see Felix and found herself briefly unable to break eye contact. As though suddenly she needed to see someone there and know they were real. Her mouth was pressed into a firm line and the struggle within was visible in the way the muscles of her face tightened and relaxed over and over again as though she were trying to speak but her lips wouldn't let any sound past them.

If she wasn't going to ignore this, then she needed to be okay with the fact that other people knew she wasn't okay. Really, by now probably everyone had noticed - Teizi and Akaavi certain had first-hand experience with just how 'off' she was. But it was one thing having people know she wasn't quite right and another to ask for help with something she didn't understand.

Which was precisely why she needed help.

After what seemed like an eternity, though in reality was no more than several seconds, Neva's features softened and she hopped down off the bunk. Hands automatically settling on her hips, she looked away, face flushed. She bit her lip, took a deep breath, then regained eye contact with Felix.

"I guess...I guess I can't hide what I don't understand. So yeah, if you want, I could use a hand figuring out what's going on. Why I can't just be normal. I don't get why my brain still seems to think that was a big deal."

Re: Mek-Sha Nightlife (Star Wars)

Posted: Wed Apr 14, 2021 12:23 am
by Monkey Kitty
Felix Iresso

Felix took a seat, arranging himself for a chat.

"I don't know about normal, Neva," he said gently. "You aren't always going to feel like this. It gets better when it's not as fresh. But normal... yeah, I don't know. I don't think I'm back to normal yet either."

He hoped she wouldn't think he was unappreciative of the good things in his life. A wonderful, supportive wife. Three beautiful new daughters. Great friends. But the good things couldn't just erase the trauma.

"It's not just about the injuries, is it? You could get hurt that bad in combat - worse, even - and not feel it like this. It's something else. It's someone doing this to you while you're helpless. While you can't protect yourself. It's... yeah, something else. It's a big deal. It's okay to admit that to yourself."